All in a sudden, i have this urge to post another entry today. Funny but true, i have no idea how long has it been since i last opened this blog. i would say almost a year ago probably. I was so determined back then to commit to update this blog, claiming it will be a revival point in my career as an amateur blogger..hik. Verily, "Istiqamah" is the hardest skill to turn to habit.
Now, I can't stop thinking of my dear friend Fatimaa who is most likely still wondering where has Rose been hiding this week. She is a dear friend, concern and caring as a good sister could be. Surprisingly, she's 3 years younger than i am.
"Rose, you need to be more open, be dependent to other people" she said last friday in my room. "Everyone thought i was dictating you". Owh, dear dear Fatimaa, she was hurt when another friend of us said she was pushing me out socialising.
The day before, we talked and got to know one another. I was surprised to learn that she had a better and proper Islamic teaching than myself and she knew a lot about Islam. When she saw my surprised face she remarked "Why? You think you're a better Muslim than i am?". Yes, it was harsh but she smile afterward.
I am falling in love with RBH already, not just because of the hospital itself but the people around me too, being such lovely and charming. In the flat, there were a mixture of people - syrian, sudanis, Malaysian, Indian, Somalian, Britons, and African-Carribean. Everyone was lovable! Thank you Allah for such companions. O Allah, please make my prayers come true. O Allah The Most Merciful and All-Knowing.
Fatimaa dear
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
One thrilling summer week....
Summer is my favourite season of the four... Lively and energetic!
This very moment, bright light is showering my glassy window generously, bringing joy and happiness to the room. I always find a great relief to close my eyes, have a big smile and breath the air very deeply metaphor as a greeting for the sunny day. One...two....three..! Huh, AlhamduliLlah, Thank you Allah for letting me have this pleasure again and again for the past 25 years.
In a way, Allah swt is cheering me up for this week will truly be a heart-throbbing week for me ever.
Just going through one phase in my life, back in 1989. An image of a young bright chubby girl, with a dark bushy hair, wearing all boy clothings, jumping all over recklessly in front of the whole family members saying "i want to be a doctor, i want to be a doctor!!"... Yup, that was me alright. Who ever instill that idea into my brain, i have no clue what so ever. I was so into it, all my friends were made aware of my big ambition. "Rosma is a doctor, Along a lawyer..." My bestfriend Nurul (we called her nuyu) used to make that remark. I can't remember what was her ambition back then. May be a doctor, since she always gave me bout of injections whenever we played 'doctor-doctor' together.
Hehehe, i missed every moment of my childhood days. Alhamdulillah, now, Along (her real name was Anis) is a lawyer, and Nuyu, a pharmacist. I am on my way to my dream. Yet, the true real point to find the answer is this Friday, 13th June 2008. Owh...how fast the time has been for me. That's the reason i'm so thrilled yet numbed this week.
Help me Allah, help me o Allah to be patient, and submit to your will whole-heartedly.
Amin